Gratitude at the David Hoffmeister ACIM Monastery
I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I'm still amazed that I was granted this chance to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for initially in a lengthy while, I don't feel alone.
Part of me wanted to remain longer, but beneath that desire was thinking that I will be doing this for the incorrect reason; as a way in order to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.a course in miracles
Before I left, Jason asked if I'd had any insights. What I'm about to generally share was not yet clear in those days; only on the drive away achieved it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from the Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never must have told you, never must have let you see inside. Don't are interested troubling the mind, won't you let it be?” This confused me as I could not consider something that I'd stated that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don't are interested troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the absolute most prominent fear I'd in coming to the Monastery was that I'd somehow interfere using its residents'satisfaction, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people's state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness immediately after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief is being (has been?) released.
There are other things that happened that felt important, but I can't consider them right now.