Gratitude at the David Hoffmeister ACIM Monastery
I wish to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I'm still amazed that I was granted this possibility to see shining samples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for initially in a long while, I don't feel alone.
Section of me wanted to keep longer, but beneath that desire was thinking that I will be this for the incorrect reason; as a way in order to avoid my problems. a course in miracles The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I'd had any insights. What I'm about to talk about wasn't yet clear in those days; only on the drive away did it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have let you see inside. Don't want it troubling your mind, won't you allow it to be?” This confused me as I possibly could not consider anything that I'd stated that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don't want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that probably the most prominent fear I'd in coming to the Monastery was that I'd somehow interfere using its residents'satisfaction, by simply my presence alone. This belief that I possibly could negatively affect other people's state of mind has been with me for quite some time, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness right after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel like the belief has been (has been?) released.
There are other items that happened that felt important, but I can't consider them right now.