Gratitude at the David Hoffmeister ACIM Monastery
I do want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I'm still amazed that I was granted this opportunity to see shining samples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the very first time in a lengthy while, I do not feel alone.
Part of me wanted to remain longer, but beneath that desire was thinking that I will be doing so for the incorrect reason; as a means to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights. What I'm about to fairly share was not yet clear at that time; acim teacher only on the drive away achieved it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from the Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never needs to have told you, never needs to have let you see inside. Don't want it troubling the mind, won't you let it be?” This confused me as I possibly could not think of anything that I had stated that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don't want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I had in coming to the Monastery was that I'd somehow interfere with its residents'peace of mind, by just my presence alone. This belief that I possibly could negatively affect other people's state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored lots of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness soon after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of is own videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel like the belief will be (has been?) released.
You will find other issues that happened that felt important, but I can't think of them right now.