Gratitude at the David Hoffmeister ACIM Monastery
I do want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I'm still amazed that I was granted this possibility to see shining samples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the very first time in an extended while, I do not feel alone.
Part of me wanted to keep longer, but beneath that desire was the idea that I could be doing this for the wrong reason; as a way in order to avoid my problems a course in miracles. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I'd had any insights. What I'm about to share wasn't yet clear in those days; only on the drive away achieved it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from the Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never must have told you, never must have allow you to see inside. Don't want it troubling your mind, won't you allow it be?” This confused me as I possibly could not consider whatever I'd said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don't want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that probably the most prominent fear I'd in coming to the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere with its residents'reassurance, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I possibly could negatively affect other people's state of mind has been with me for quite some time, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness soon after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of is own videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief will be (has been?) released.
You will find other issues that happened that felt important, but I can't consider them right now.