Gratitude at the David Hoffmeister ACIM Monastery
I wish to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I'm still amazed that I was granted this possibility to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the very first time in a long while, I do not feel alone.
Section of me wanted to keep longer, but beneath that desire was thinking that I would be this for the incorrect reason; as a way in order to avoid my problems acim teacher. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I'd had any insights. What I'm about to fairly share wasn't yet clear at that time; only on the drive away did it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from the Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have allow you to see inside. Don't are interested troubling the mind, won't you let it be?” This confused me as I possibly could not consider anything that I'd stated that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don't are interested troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I'd in arriving at the Monastery was that I'd somehow interfere using its residents'satisfaction, by just my presence alone. This belief that I possibly could negatively affect other people's state of mind has been with me for quite some time, and has colored a lot of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness immediately after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel like the belief will be (has been?) released.
There are other items that happened that felt important, but I can't consider them right now.