thesmattering https://wordsmith.social/thesmattering/ this and that and often these Mon, 20 Apr 2026 22:03:37 +0000 Well, I have no plan for what to write but I need to take a break from... https://wordsmith.social/thesmattering/well-i-have-no-plan-for-what-to-write-but-i-need-to-take-a-break-from <![CDATA[Well, I have no plan for what to write but I need to take a break from obsessing over the timeline and waiting for a blow from heaven to fall down and bust my head open. I need to be safe. I don't know how to be calm, I can't remember what it feels like. I don't remember what to do. I don't know what normal people take for granted. I feel like an alien trying to pretend to be a human but getting everything wrong, not understanding people at all. I'm not a convincing simulacrum. I might just kind of go with the flow as my mind is kind of reeling after watching a video about a deranged computer programmer, a true life story. I may just go with the crazy in me and write like that. Here I'll try. In the next post. ]]> Well, I have no plan for what to write but I need to take a break from obsessing over the timeline and waiting for a blow from heaven to fall down and bust my head open. I need to be safe. I don't know how to be calm, I can't remember what it feels like. I don't remember what to do. I don't know what normal people take for granted. I feel like an alien trying to pretend to be a human but getting everything wrong, not understanding people at all. I'm not a convincing simulacrum.

I might just kind of go with the flow as my mind is kind of reeling after watching a video about a deranged computer programmer, a true life story. I may just go with the crazy in me and write like that.

Here I'll try.

In the next post.

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