the Tulips

An updated version of this appears in self stuff, among other commentary.

i don't know why things have been so tiring lately i still feel like i'm holding myself to the same standard that me had it shouldn't make things EASIER? it's weird it's actually pretty common that s'weird i like... things are working better than they ever have and i love dearly and i like being around i like my life? even if i don't stick around it's really sweet

i just feel kind of dread that this might be me forever

i don't know who that person was i remember being them i remember moths. i remember really liking moths

i think for the first time ever which uh yeah, that's a fucking emotion, huh i don't know what this train of thought is.