Gratitude at the David Hoffmeister ACIM Monastery
I do want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I'm still amazed that I was granted this possibility to see shining samples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the very first time in an extended while, I don't feel alone.
Section of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was thinking that I will be doing this for the wrong reason; as a means to prevent my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.a course in miracles
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights. What I'm about to fairly share wasn't yet clear at that time; only on the drive away made it happen coalesce.
That morning, several lines from the Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never must have told you, never must have allow you to see inside. Don't want it troubling your brain, won't you let it be?” This confused me as I really could not think of whatever I had said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don't want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I had in coming to the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere with its residents'satisfaction, by just my presence alone. This belief that I really could negatively affect other people's state of mind has been with me for quite some time, and has colored lots of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness immediately after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel like the belief is being (has been?) released.
You will find other things that happened that felt important, but I can't think of them right now.